You know that moment when you’re reading a book and you just have to stop and bite your lip and squeal or sigh or close your eyes and wrinkle your nose and forehead and press the book against your heart and just like sit there and try to soak up the gorgeous literature via osmosis?

That’s my favorite part of reading. 

dont think ive been this unhappy for so long

have not stopped crying

cant stop

my bestfriends going through a really hard time and i want to be there for her

and she pretty much has a thing with my other bestfriend

which im cool with

totally

i just dont wanna lose either of them

and i really want to be there for her

and i cant stop crying

and he wants me to cancel seeing her so he can see her

which is fine

but i want to be there for her

and i cant if i cant see her

so i cant stop crying

not that i can say no

i want them both to be happy

and if for that to be the case they have to be together then so be it

i just dont want to lose either of them

or have them replace me with each other in their lives

but i said we could go out altogether

but he wants to go out with just her

which is cool

but i need to see her

im really worried

and this is the way its gonna be now

them

and not me

im happy for them i really really am

i just kinda need them right now and im scared they dont really want me

i cant sleep coz im crying so much

and i dont know what to do